Due to my current computer conundrum, I feel it necessary to get a post up on the time I have before my boyfriend gets out of work to usurp the employee computers to get a post up while I can. At first, though, I was a bit worried that I wouldn’t have much to say, but, even if I don’t, saying something is better than nothing.
Besides, I do have something to say. It was almost another rant about the annoyances that go hand-in-hand with a customer service job (I honestly thought I was free from that obnoxious kid who just shouts at everything, but nooooo), but I’ve already forgotten what specific irritation had me thinking, “I should blog about this later.” Instead, I want to take a moment and marvel at how much more productive I’ve been now that I’m not in front of a computer nearly as much as I used to.
I’ll admit, I hit a bit of a rough spot last night. Being disconnected makes me feel like the world is spinning along without me, leaving me behind, and I had a pretty strong bout of depression centered on feeling useless, unproductive, and generally wasting my time with this whole writing nonsense. Part of me cannot relinquish the feeling that, by postponing the release date of Fearless, I have failed insurmountably. But the thing is that I haven’t. The thing is, the final product is going to be much, much better for it. It sucks to miss a deadline, but the series will get more of the ending it (and its few sparse fans!) deserve.
Despite that down spell last night, I actually have been probably three times as much writing as I was before, and that’s awesome. This time online is going to be wonderful for doing what I was really lacking: creating content. I’ve started digging up all my hundreds of notebooks and breathing new life into old projects while still plugging at some of the others. I managed to churn out seven pages of a new ghost-related short story (or novella? novel? Who knows?) this morning. Seven pages in one sitting is absolutely unprecedented for me. But without the distraction of emailing or blogging and only a little social media on my phone, I’m doing some really great stuff.
It will be a while before I have the resources for a new machine, but I think it’s going to be a very, very productive while indeed.