Hello. My name is Laura, and I have a work problem.
Let me explain further. You see, a comment from P.S. Hoffman on my RoW80 Update yesterday caught me a little: “But you’re so busy!” Of all the things that could be said about me, I wouldn’t have expected that one, especially on a day when I felt like I took “day off” to new extremes. And this isn’t the first time I had a day pass me by when I think to myself, “UGH I’m so lazy. I didn’t do anything. I’m such a waste of space!”
I know it’s important to take a day off every once in a while, but I realized that, even when I take a “day off,” I still write, I still network, there’s quite a lot I still do. But is it really enough to constitute as “busy”? That’s when it hit me that I have a very faulty concept of “work,” especially now that most of my work consists of doing something I absolutely love for little to no immediate, visible, tangible “payment.” My brain is still stuck in work-as-hard-as-you-can-in-a-thankless-job-you-hate mode, even though it’s been months since I’ve left that kind of life far, far behind.
How do you define work? I know that submitting a story and getting a chapter of a book written during a day is some pretty important work, especially if I throw a promotion of something into the mix, which is what I’ve been doing for the most part these days. But my brain is still in the process of defining my 24 hours at the part-time job, quantifiable, official, blah blah blah, as more “valuable.” It’s so bizarre to make that mental shift, and I have a long way to go in that respect. I don’t feel like I’m working as I sit at this computer, typing this up, but I am. Spending two hours every morning doing all of this is work. It’s good work. And I keep myself busy. But I enjoy it immensely, so it might never feel like work. And that’s okay. I just have to keep reminding myself of that until I break through that barrier and start to truly believe it.
What do you think? Do you find writing work? How much writing do you have to do before you feel you’ve put in a good amount of work? Is it possible to ever break through the mentality of the typical 9-to-5? I’d love to hear some thoughts…if you’re not too busy.