Though I know I sometimes get this weird funk going on during the weekends where I feel all my focus is completely gone and I can’t get anything accomplished, I truly feel like this last week of RoW80‘s Round 2 has been all about recharging. It’s been an odd week, full of things that have thrown off my rhythm. My Kickstarter for Soulless ended so I have to get my butt in gear about sending out books and what have you. I reached the part in my Soulless edits where I want to add a chapter, so I have to scribble that up, despite my brain being in edit mode, not writing mode. I’ve been having my betas getting back with me, which has been equal parts encouraging and discouraging, though I’ve been working hard to keep myself bouyed up and positive. I can’t seem to get any of my short stories finished (though I am waiting to hear on a story that made it to the second round of consideration). Overall, I feel a bit like I’m ina purgatory of sorts, with a lot of conflicting emotions, feeling somewhat useless, and hoping it will pass by next week.
Even if it doesn’t pass by next week, perhaps the start of Round 3 will get things back in line. At least I know that these periods of disconnectedness are quite normal and usually clear up after you take a break and just don’t stress out about it. It’s the circle of life, man.
So I don’t have much to say this post except that I’m kind of in that funk, but we all get in that funk and I know I’ll get out of it soon. My head is swimming because there’s a lot to do in July, and then I’ll have a second book out, and part of me is not ready for that. Good thing I have some time to try to get used to the idea. Strange how I feel so overwhelmed about Soulless. Maybe because it’s my first novel. Maybe because I know it’s good, but it’s not great. Maybe it’s because I’m being successful at stuff, and that can be a little scary at times. It’s probably an amalgamation of all those things, but the best thing to do is not to dwell on it, but, rather, to just keep forging ahead in spite of those doubts and feels.
Ah, well. We’ll get to the next one eventually. In the meantime, check out posts from my fellow RoWers here!