A Cage-y Question.

Anyone who follows my A Round of Words in 80 Days posts (and thank you, those who do!) will know that I’ve been struggling to figure out what book I want to strive to finish to be the second book I promised myself I’d publish this year. I know I’m itching to get to it, too; I sort of blotched my approach with Bowlful of Bunnies, and I’m looking forward to a chance to do a better job marketing Book No. 0002. The problem is that I’m not sure what it’s going to be, and I’m still flailing about the same issue I was flailing about a month ago.

Battarack Girls has lost its spark for now; I’ve returned to trying to start a new novel every month to have a treasure trove of potential pieces available to me. And, right now, I’m seriously considering focusing solely on Serpent in a Cage.

There are a few problems with this. In a nutshell, you could say that I’m not feeling ready for it to be published. On the other hand, though, this is a story I’ve been crafting for nearly ten years now. I’m sort of having a “shit or get off the pot” moment. It’s the closest thing I have to being finished right now. It’s the start of a whole slew of books I’ve been itching to write as well. I’ve always wanted it to be traditionally published, but I’ve been more keep on the idea of bringing it up by its charming indie bootstraps lately, too.

I think I might give it a try. I’m happy to announce that the past two days, I’ve been successful in meeting my page-a-day goals on my various projects that I’m still working on, so I’m definitely moving into a good head space to get some work done, methinks. I’m typing and editing my submission for The First Line tomorrow, too. I’m not entirely happy with how it turned out, but I think it’s still better to submit it than just letting it fall to the wayside, and then I can get started on the next one. My focus will mostly be shifted toward Serpent in a Cage, or whatever other story presents itself.

And now, I turn my attention onto you, dear readers. Have you ever stood on that precipice, on the edge of fear, when something you’ve been working on for a very long time presents itself to be coming into fruition? Did you close your eyes and leap blindly into it, or did you timidly try to ease your way down the steep side of the mountain? What ultimately lead you to taking the plunge? I know a certain sense of fear and worry is holding me back with SiaC, but I’m building myself up to finally confront it…and swiftly demolish it, as well. What are your thoughts?

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9 thoughts on “A Cage-y Question.

  1. I have found as I teeter on the edge of something that may be the accumulation of long hard work, as I fear rejection and failure and maybe even success if I am honest, it is usually then I get pushed….. into it. Most times, whether I jump right in, hesitate or get a push, it is all good with the end results, because win, lose or fail I have learned.

  2. My opinions about books and the angst of writing them are unpopular ones I think. There are a couple of writers who say to me “You’re not afraid of anything, you just put it out there and see what happens.” And that’s just me. I write something. I polish it up. I get beta readers (who also happen to be awesome editors). It gets proofed. Then I publish it. That’s it. I don’t worry about it. I don’t wring my hands over it. I just do it. And I know this is very unpopular because writers are supposed to be different… writers are supposed to be full of angst and they are supposed to fret and worry. I must just be wired differently, I don’t know. Or maybe I’m just too laid back. But my theory is, if I keep worrying about it, I won’t get it published. And here’s the thing…I bet SiaC is a really, really awesome book. It’s probably better than even you think it is. Maybe you’re working on the other projects because you’re afraid to finish the book that’s been so close to your heart. But if it IS close to your heart, then it deserves to be put out there for all to enjoy. Let go of your fear and write with joy! 🙂

    1. LOL, I think the problem is that I feel I’ve build SiaC up so much, and people expect it to be awesome, but what if it’s worse than I think it is? Sometimes I pretend I have a pretty thick skin, but I’m a weakling when it comes to my little writing babies. But you’re totally right that it deserves to be out there, and, lately, I’ve just been reminding myself that SiaC isn’t the end of anything. It’s the beginning of so many other things that will be even better, and I’ll never get to those things if I don’t do this one first….

      Thanks so much, Lauralynn. And, um, how’s about you start bottling up some of that writerly courage and sending some my way? I bet you could turn a pretty good profit on something like that.

  3. I’m always on the nervous edge when I have been planning a story but not actually started writing it. I seem to put it off with various other tasks. When I do start putting words down, it is ok. But getting to that point…

    1. I stress out about starting a story, personally. Once I start, I’m good, but there’s so much importance bottled up into those first few pages…but it’s not like you can’t go back and change it if it sucks. Most people recommend doing that. But still, it’s always that first step…

  4. Don’t let fear hold you back, or listen to too many people. That always gets in in trouble. Jump in, go for it, but always keep your head too. You have to put your whole body under to get used to the water, but you do surface quickly. You find out it isn’t so bad. Easing in your are nipped by the cold longer, and you may end up giving up and getting out. Keep going, keep writing, keep trying.

    1. Well, fear is holding me back, I think, but most people are telling me to “Do eeeeeeeeeet,” and, in that case, I think I can listen to them. I hope so, anyway.

      I’ve always been equal parts an “ease into it” swimmer and a “jump into it” swimmer….I never know which approach I’ll take until I get into the water. I don’t know what that says, lol.

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